gone in an instant.

These past couple of weeks I have realized that life is so sort someone I know today could be gone tomorrow and what if I was in a fight with them or we were mad at each other, and they were suddenly gone? I wouldn't want that to be the last thing they remembered about me or I remembered about them.. We never know when our last day here on this earth will be and we never realize how many days we waste being mad, sad, or just angry at someone! It shouldn't be that way. We should be happy and we shouldn't fight! So why do we?? I guess we are all human, we have differences and we don't always agree. But if you think about it, if today was your last day would you be ok with how your relationships will end or the things you have done? You only live this life once, so live it!

<<<past>>>

Well I'm sure we have all heard the saying "what happens in the past stays in the past" right? Maybe because you are ashamed of the things that might be in it, or it's just to painful to remember, or maybe even you did something wild and crazy that is just unspeakable? There are a lot of reasons we leave the past behind but for me the past is a reminder, not of the things I've done wrong or right but it's a reminder of how I have changed and grown as a person. Now I'm not saying that I don't have things in the past that I am ashamed of or embarrassed about because I have them too. I like to think of them as things that made me who I am today, things that at the time may have made me sad or feel weak have just made me that much stronger! I do not regret the things I have done in my past, I will admit some things are harder not to regret than others but I try my best not to regret them. We all make mistakes big or little we all have things that don't go perfect and we get hard on ourselves for it but eventually we need to realize that it happens we did it and can't change it so we move forward! And that's what life's all about right? Moving forward, keeping our heads high, and learning from the past!
So instead of being hard on yourself and sad about your past let it make you the better person because you deserve it!(:

Friend----ZONED

Alright so I'm sure I'm speaking for all the ladies out there that have that one man that you just can't get over or he just seems to come back into your life right at the worst times? they say that they just want to try and be friends with you but they lead you on all the time? you all know what I'm talking about right? well I was talking about this with one of my really good friends because her and I have the same thing going on with some boys. We love them but at the same time we hate them. Love hate relationships! We hate the way that they make us go crazy, the way that you think that you are the one in the wrong in the situation and you have to fix it. Ya we've all been there. As we were talking about it she was saying that we look at it in the wrong way.. I wasn't sure what she was talking about but then she started to explain it into detail. They want to be friends right, and you think that they flirt with you all the time and that they are just leading you on? well we are thinking about it in the wrong way, you have the mind set that there is more between you guys, that there is still that love spark...well that's the problem right there. You can't think of it as the love relationship type, you have to which it into the friend zone relationship! Like that boy that you just want to be friends with, put him there. I never thought that would work but now that I have tried it, it really does work. Me and that boy get along just fine and there are no feelings in that way, we are actually pretty good friends. It might work better for me because I was best friends with the boy first before the love part came in so it makes it a little easier, but I did love that boy and that makes it harder! you just have to remember that there is someone out there just dying to meet you and love you. Just don't miss him by holding on to someone who wont miss you when your gone. He's out there just keep your head up!(:

-Charater and Scene-

Character

• name is Hope
• age 15
• She has long brown hair, plays volleyball so she's super fit and kind of tall.
• she lives in California because that is where the foster system placed them she loves it in California but hates the family
• she wants to find out about her real parents
• she has a hard time letting people in, loving people
• she hates spoiled kids
• she is independent
• she was giving up for adoption when she was a little girl. she doesn't let people in because she thinks no one can be trusted.
• she doesn't have a family life besides what the foster families give her but more of the time its not good

Scene

I’ve spent all these years trying to figure out who my parents are, what happened to them but anytime I bring them up around the foster parents they get strange and change the subject really fast. I didn’t really think anything of it until the last three families did the same thing when I brought them up. Could they know who my parents are? Why is it a secret? My whole life is just one big secret and I am determined to figure it out and something tells me it has to do with whatever is in that file!